merci beaucoup, et j’ai quelque chose pour vous

wow. it has been ages since i wrote my last post. i know i should spend more time on this blog, but believe me, i have been REALLY busy (no exaggeration at all). however, i want to start this blog by thanking all of you bloggers out there who have been following this blog since it was first started. this site is our baby and even though it is far from perfect, you guys have spent your precious time to read our thoughts and complaints about life merci, merci, merci.

i am soon going to be leaving for an exotic place far, far away from my hometown. it is full of exciting places and people, not to mention the food! the food is just to-die-for! this mysterious place is not really mysterious for my friends here, but i want it to be that way for you guys. i would post pictures about the place in my next posts and i hope you would guess where i was going to. i don’t actually like to leave home, of course. leaving home is like leaving yourself and searching for a new identity. you feel somewhat lost in the new place, and you have to adjust real hard to be able to adapt. it was like leaving ames all over again and whenever i’m going to leave a place to a new one, i always let myself get lost in a flashback of the memories i got from that place.

chinese new year. valentine’s day. and everything in between. i could remember the big days and everything else was a blur. however, that blurry vision was the vivid one of them all. it was a dream that i had post-valentine’s. is it the effect of valentine’s? it might as well be, who knows. so, one morning, i woke up at 06.45am when my alarm blurted out harshly. i silenced it immediately. tick, tock, tick, tock. i couldn’t fall back asleep, but i also couldn’t move my body to get ready to work either. soon, i realized that i was sick. my head felt heavy, and it felt like the whole room was circling around even though i asked it to stop. i touched my head and felt the burn. great, i have fever. decided not to go to work for today, i strained to go back to sleep so i could get some rest. even though it wasn’t easy, my eyes got slurry and i was thrown back to dreamland complete with its puffy clouds.

i was in a car, and i think it was a green chevy impala, or maybe something else in that class. i wasn’t really sure whose it is nor where the destination is. i regained my consciousness after falling asleep in the passenger’s seat. how surprised i was to realize who’s behind the steering wheel when i turned my head to the left! it was D. i thought i was dreaming, so i asked him, “who are you?” he looked at me and asked back, “oh, you’re awake? did you sleep well?” okay, i have no idea if this is a dream or not, but it seems legit. i mean, he talks, right? i told him i slept well and was wondering where we were going. chicago, illinois. i cringed a little at the answer because i don’t know how many times i have been to chicago but it gets really really old. he must have seen my expression from the corner of his eyes cause he asked, “do you change your mind now? i mean, we can always go home, if you want.” i said i was fine. right at that point, i wasn’t even sure i know what mind i had. what is this? why am i in this situation? i tried to relax and listen to the songs that’s being played through his ipod. i jogged my head trying to seep the rhythm in for what seems to be 10 minutes. and then, i was really curious what kind of mind i had before, that i let out a little confusion in my face. yes, i am the type of person who needs to be in control in what i do or think, so the thought that i didn’t remember my own thinking just bugs the hell out of me. in a matter of seconds, he asked me why the confused face. i uttered my confusion to him and he looked at me for three seconds without saying anything. then the bomb drops. “you totally forgot that you ran from home and your parents? we decided that we would try chicago and then if we don’t like it, maybe boston or something else. you don’t remember any of this?” my heart raced and my eyes dilated. i’m running away from home? i’m running away with him? did he ask to marry me? what the hell? why don’t i remember anything? where’s my stupid brain when i need it?! “we need to stop at the gas station. the car’s running low.” i was still preoccupied with my thoughts so i only nodded in agreement. after 1.5 miles, we found a chevron and decided to refuel there. he went out of the car and pumped in the gas bracing the cold of december. i admit, it was pretty chilly that day. he shivered a little and i gave a little smile at him through the window. “i’m getting coffee, do you want anything?” i said no, and he started to walk towards the store. since he’s out of sight, i tried hard to concentrate and gather my thoughts of what has happened in the past few weeks. i thought i was never going to meet him again? why am i running away from home with him now??! before i could gather anything, i saw him walking out of the store. and then i saw he’s actually walking with another guy and they were talking like good friends. i couldn’t really see his face so i frowned and focused my retina at the target. my sight was too bad and with all the fog in the area, i couldn’t identify this other person.

“yo, what’s up? mind if i hitch with you guys?”

i was shocked beyond heaven for the second time today.

it’s no other than GD.

GD who?

yes, GD as in G-Dragon from bigbang.

 

my eyes flickered really fast and sweats were coming down my entire face. that was a really, really, really, really, really strange dream, i thought. D and GD? lol. i would never ever expect them to be in one scene. i don’t even think D ever heard of GD, i’m sure. that dream then led to more countless flashbacks. bittersweet

love bite,

m

Love Love Love ❤❤

Happy Belated Valentine everyoneeee !! ❤❤

I know I know it’s super duper lateee.. But still, I wanna tell you about my Valentine’s Day

So this year Valentine’s Day, is not as special as the last 2 years *I believe the girls here know why* Okay forget about the past, we have to move forward, right?

Since it was Thursday, I spent all day in Design building, no candle light dinner, no flower, no chocolate

Eitsss but don’t judge me.. I’m not a nerd! Cica, Jade n Lily, and me had a romantic dinner the next day..  *wink wink* We went to Waterfront Sea Food Restaurant ( I swear we wanted to have a fine dining but all places was full booked) with my 2 other friends, Mr. J and Mr. A.  We ordered looottts of food *we got ‘free’ sushi roll too*

As for this year, somebody in Indo sent me a cute teddy bear from ‘Teddy House’ with a pink polka dot dress and ribbon. I should give her name soon *tell me if you have any suggestion*.. OMG OMG OMG, I got a new friend! Hahaha.

Did I tell you I got this ‘memory foam pillow’ too from Mr. E? It is sooooooo comfy!! He knows exactly what I need = sleep.. LOL

Last but not least,

Can Cica, Jade n Lily, and me time

Our late night snack = Korean noodle ❤

Okay Guyss.. See u next post! Saranghe!! ❤

xoxo,

miss n

Secuil Perasaan

Happy Valentine’s Day! Memang benar diri ini terlambat untuk ucapkan kalimat itu. Mustahil untuk diucapkan  sekarang karena hari Valentine sudah terlewat untuk tahun ini. Apa seorang Bodoh ini lupa? Tentu tidak!

Si Bodoh yang haus akan cinta ini semakin terpuruk ke jurang sakit hati, di mana ia selalu gagal denganyang namanya cinta. Seterpuruk inikah kisah cinta Si Bodoh? Sebenarnya tidak di semua kisah itu dia menderita, namun kali ini kisah cintanya kandas tak beralasan.

Satu minggu sebelum hari cinta…

Si Bodoh semakin gila memikirkan tanggal 14 Februari itu. “Kamu kenapa? Buat apa kamu menyia-nyiakan energimu hanya karena hari yang disebut-sebut sebagai hari cinta sedunia? Mending kamu mikirin hal lain di dalam hidup ini! Dasar manusia nggak berguna! Sok melankolis! Enyahkanlah angan-angan tentang si pangeran berkuda putih itu!”, Si Bodoh kecil memberontak.

“Mungkin benar juga yang diteriakan suara hatiku ini.”, Si Bodoh berusaha menghempaskan pikiran berbau cinta-cintaan itu.

Dua hari sebelum Hari Valentine…

Ternyata apa yang dihilangkan dari pikirannya beberapa hari lalu kembali datang. Cinta. Kata yang bisa membuat orang mabuk kepayang itu kini hanyalah membawa kesedihan ke diri Si Bodoh. Valentine kali ini diberinya nama… Blue Valetine’s Day.

Tetesan air membasahi pekarangan rumah Si Bodoh. Ia mulai menguap sambil berpandangan kosong lurus ke depan. Ia berterima kasih kepada hujan yang dengan setia menemaninya. Dentingan lagu Endless Love memekakkan telinganya. Tetes demi tetes air mata membasahi pipinya. Lalu muncullah lagu Goodbye by Air Supply yang ia yakini menambah derasnya aliran air mata yang jatuh dari indera penglihatannya itu.

Si Bodoh beranjak ke beranda sambil menenteng buku hariannya.

Dear Diary,

Entah apa yang harus kutuliskan di buku kesayanganku ini. Maafkan aku karena membasahimu dengan tangisan tak bergunaku.

Dear Diary,

Ingatkah engkau dengan kisahku 4 tahun silam? Hari itu, hari cinta sedunia. Dapur rumah ini menjadi saksi bisu kisah cintaku dengan si dia yang akan selalu terpatri dalam hatiku. Aku enggan meyebutkan namanya lagi. Sebab dialah penyebab air mataku mengalir dengan derasnya. Iya, kamu benar, Diary. Empat tahun lalu, hujan juga turun. Tapi, aku merasa hujan waktu itu menambah keromantisan antara aku dan dirinya yang tengah menyelesaikan brownies perayaan cerita cinta kami. Tepat pukul 5 sore, 4 tahun yang lalu itu, aku dan dia menikmati brownies dan hot chocolate di teras sambil mendengarkan rintik hujan, petikan gitar, serta suara merdunya di tengah mendung. Waktu itu aku sangat bahagia. Sungguh berbeda hujan kali ini dengan waktu itu. Kali ini hujan memberikan kesedihan. Hari ini aku kesepian sendiri.

Dear Diary,

Tak kusangka, saat ini radio sedang menggodaku juga. Lagu When There Was Me And You sedang dimainkan ketika aku sedang mengenang dirinya. Inilah salah satu lucunya dunia. Hidup sangatlah lucu terkadang. Tangisku membuat kantukku tiba. Sepertinya aku akan memejamkan mata sejenak. Sebelm aku lupa, aku cuma mau bilang… Happy Valentine’s Day, Diary!

Bisous,

na.

“Only once in y…

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

-Bob Marley-

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! I hope that all of you will find your special someone

w/ ❤

JnL

Happy Chinese New Year ! :D

Gong Xi Fa Chai 

Happy Chinese New Year

Dumpling, fireworks, family, hong pao *red envelope with money inside*, maybe some of the things on the Chinese New Year list that I should had yesterday..

Chinese New Year is different than Western New Year that comes between Dec 31th and Jan 1st. As for Chinese New Year, we use lunar calendar because it is lunisolar.. Not only in China, but Hong Kong, Macau, Taiwan, Malaysia, Philippine, Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia *our beloved country* also some of the country that celebrate Chinese New Year.. Okay, if you wanna know more, please  ask Mr. Google

To celebrate Chinese New Year, Amesian *not including ex-Amesian.. hihihi..* had a ‘hot pot’ party in one of our volunteer this time *thanks to Mr. & Mrs. GusGun, Mr. Morris, and Mr. Darlin. It was super duper yummy!! we put a lot of meets, tofu, mushrooms, vegetables, etc.. What is moreeee, we had to dress up in ‘red’ for our luck this year..

Anddd, this is a few of our picture during the party

As for CNY gift to Ames in Love girlfriends, I made this cartoon of their face yesterday night *using app though haha* Check this out!

Well, that’s all today. See you next post.. Can’t wait to share more story caw!

xoxo,

miss n

Drawing is fun! :)

Hii bloggers!! Do you like drawing? I hope you like it because it’s so much fun to draw!! If you like to see arts and paintings, but haven’t tried to produce some at all, I have some tips to share with you guys..

I like to use graphite pencil to construct my drawings. Usually my teacher at school suggests me to have a range of graphite pencils from F, 2H, H, HB, B, 2B, 3B, 4B, to 6B. However, i usually just use two kinds of pencils which are HB and 4B! Those two are my favorites! I use HB to sketch the overall proportion first. I usually draw very lightly to begin with, get the sense of the overall proportion correctly. Then, I will correct it with erasers and put very few details along the way. I suggest not to draw details first because that strategy is really hard to apply to get a good final drawing in the end.

After I get the sense of the proportion and some details (very few details), I will start to use 4B. This pencil is good because it is soft and really convenient for drawing and rendering. Do not be afraid of 4B because it is a dark graphite pencil. You can use a kneaded eraser to make it lighter! (i’m a huge fan of kneaded eraser! i love it!). This 4B pencil is really helpful to create shadows and the sense of lighting. Be brave to make a contrast between light and dark, but you need to know when to stop so it won’t be too much!

Here ya go i posted my sketch from my drawing class today! I had a drawing exercise to study the masterpiece drawings of Michaelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci, Donatelo, etc by made a replica of one of them. I chose Leonardo da Vinci about Grotesque. Definition of Grotesque from Merriam webster is “a style of decorative art characterized by fanciful or fantastic human and animal forms often interwoven with foliage or similar figures that may distort the natural into absurdity, ugliness, or caricature” (merriam-webster.com). I really desired to draw it because I wanted to study the human face, composition, proportion, and the lighting as well.

Hope this helps, guys!

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Ciao,

vr

The drawing process

Final drawing

Winter has gone Spring’s coming

ok, i know i borrow this title from ‘blue’ * kyaa..kyaa.. big bang ! XD*  but this’s exactly how i feel at this moment when im writing this blog. its finally starting to get warmer too, the snows melting, the suns rising… well sometimes,  but still its so much better than last week *stay positive mode on

so much things going on lately, blizzard in ames or wtvr.. the same thing going in my head these days. and one thing i just realized now that actually being super busy is goood for you because ur so much productive and stay focus on the big things, not too worry on lil bit of this and that… coz u just have no time for that, hmm or u can say a bit more insensitive. i wanna say sorry n thx to a friend that i always cause her trouble on her peaceful life. and today i just heard a news from indo that my friend’s dad just passed away its just so sudden out of nowhere. one lesson here is anything could happen to anyone  anytime n  you’ll never know.

okay enough with all the whimpy story … when theres bad news theres also good news rite?! my good friend from seattle is getting married by the end of this year, so truly happy for her ^^ ( how confusing to react when one friend just lost a family member n the other is getting married at once, life is just this interesting isnt it )

under the same topic here, shall we congratulate our friend boneless who’s also getting married later this year *wink wink.. hopefully at least anyone of one us could come (to m: the dogs owner is also on the list)  wow its starting now.. seems so many people now so ready to start a new page of life so… i’ll end this post here… time to go back focus on my portfolio…n be ready to start my career life.

happy ending,

ca